Emory Asaya Miller

Emory Asaya Miller was born 05/23/23 at 2:35am. That morning contractions started quickly and your mommy was rushed to the nearest hospital by ambulance. Hands shaking and barely able to state my own name I was put in a room and not even 20 minutes into being there started pushing. I was texting Daddy and Mimi the whole way. 

2:13am “Just made it to the hospital”

2:27am “7cm dilated”

2:27am “He’s coming” 

2:31am Your daddy says “Well atleast you’re at the right place to have a baby lol”

2:33am I reply despite being in immense pain “Getting he’s coming now I’m pushing the”

I couldn’t even form the words but there you were, no words other than Emory Asaya Miller were needed. I loved you from the moment I found out I was pregnant with you and with every late night craving, breath taking kick and rambunctious flip my love grew deeper but nothing would compare to the day I laid my eyes on you. All of those moments wrapped up with a yellow bow.  I finally got to see those little toes that nestled between my ribs, the stretches that pushed up against my belly, and those iconic 12 fingers. All the nurses would say how you’re such a beautiful baby and they weren’t lying my boy was a handsome baby. Every day in the NICU I would speak to you about your crazy big brother and sister and how excited they were to meet you. We sang and rocked together until we fell asleep because I couldn’t sleep any other way, I needed you. We were so excited to bring you home and your siblings were so eager to get you out of your car seat. You were a gift to us all wrapped up with a yellow bow. Ashéa initiated you into the sibling group with her special slap to the face and Mateo gently patted you and examined your face for any injuries. He already knew what you were in for and had to protect you. Our Emory was finally home. Every day I woke up and we went to work together. Customers asking me about you because they could hear your grunts and little noises. Those were my favorite sounds to hear and you were my favorite sight to see. All of my favorite parts of me and your father all wrapped up with a yellow bow.

Emory Asaya Miller, my sunshine, I only miss you when I’m breathing. I only think of you every time my heart beats. We love you so much baby boy. 

With you lies everything good that I had left in me. Every moment without you has been feint, and life has become gray. You were the light of our lives even for a small moment, now you are our promise. 

Our promise to do better, be better and live better. Our promise to go after absolutely everything we set our hearts to instead of convincing ourselves that they aren’t possible. Our promise to be understanding. You are my promise to live all of the life that you couldn’t and not to hold back, because you didn’t. 

I don’t know how to be happy or what happiness really even looks like anymore, but I know that I have to keep going with you in my heart and your strength in mind. 

Thank you, Emory. For moments passed and lessons learned. Daddy misses you and loves you. 

Me and Andria never fight but last month we did.“You’re not calling him E-Money” I can see her face.

“Oh yes I am!!!”  I exclaim in her oh so familiar tone she asks “If you’re Auntie Cookie & the other kids have names that goes with cookies like butters and chippy, how does that even fit? That means he’s left out.” Cleverly i state “nope because you need MONEY to buy cookies. E-MONEY IN THE BUILDING!” We burst into laughter as she rubbed her belly. I originally made this song for Mateo but Ashea and Emory came shortly after and I made sure to make a part for them as well. 

(Ashea aka Butters)

I remember when I got the call

Life went from black and white 

to something that

I had never seen before

Your colors they shine so bright on me

I've been waiting for you so long

you're the one I adore and been waiting for 

I was good but now I'm better, yeah

So I'm just looking for the right words to say

I just wanna show you in every way

Even though I'm far  Auntie Cooke’s love 

is always there

I'm so glad that you're here (Always be grateful)

(Mateo potato aka My chocolate chip)

 It’s Impossible to comprehend

The way it felt to hold your hand in mine

Hearing the first word you said

Was like sweet music to my ears

I'm so glad that you're here (Always be grateful)

(Emory aka E-Money In the building!!!!!)

For as long as we've got, we ain't falling apart

I know I'll never stop loving you

Its all for you (for you for you)

For you we’ll always be grateful

For time spent with you

we will always be grateful

Love 

Auntie Cookie, Donnele, & Jayce

Em, you taught me more in 25 days than many could have taught me in 25 years. Losing you made my world dimmer. I love you. I miss you. And I will see you again. As I begin to see the bright spots of life again it will continue with you not in spite of you. 

Your foundation of love will truly be a Foundation of love. Thank you Em, for the inspiration you provide - our beautiful dragonfly - you are forever in our M’EMORY!!!. 

Love always from your Mimi. 💗🙏🏽💯🙌🏼